Monday: day four: deep teal green cotton peasant dress with black cinch belt, gunmetal hoop earrings, bare feet, and dazed expression.
Tuesday: I'm kind of excited about today's outfit, since I made the top this morning in an hour: light aqua burnout knit drapeneck top with ruffle sleeves and banded bottom, black tank underneath, cuffed straightleg jeans, and bronze Miss Piggy approved platform birdcage wedge sandals.
Wednesday: Today, an all-Beqi outfit: black knit dolman sleeved top with a wide banded bottom, teal matte jersey knit 3/4 skirt with double ruffle, bronze birdcage sandals, and freshly minted toes.
Friday: Okay, I didn't get a chance to post yesterday, so here's two outfits for the diary: yesterday--knee length cuffed skinny jean shorts, black dolman sleeved top, black cork wedge sandals. Today--similar jean shorts, royal blue babydoll top, black flip flops.
Saturday: Almost forgot: today, I mostly wore a light green knit strapless babydoll dress and bronze platform sandals, but now that I'm going to the bar I've changed into a Social D tee, skinny dark denim jeans, and wedge sandals.
Sunday: Outside today: black wide strap tencel blousey tank with back ties, skinny blue jeans and black gladiator sandals. Taking jewelry supplies with me to make some earrings.
Wednesday: Missed the last two days, but they warn't much to speak of. Today's is better: black flip-flops, cuffed grey skinny jeans, black tank top under a deep olive green sheer sweater knit dress (It's much lighter than it sounds), silver hoop earrings. Hair is up in a messy bun.
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4/19/09
Some musings on a Sunday afternoon.
I am a hopeless romantic. And yet, I hate romance movies with every fiber of my being. Why? Because they trivialize love; forcing it into awkward, gimmick-laden situations until the stories become indistinguishable from one another. No earth has been trod so well as the path of romantic comedy; the dirt will no longer keep any imprint of substance.
Also, it bothers me that the part of the romance these films focus on is inevitably the least interesting: namely, the beginning. It is impossible to love at first sight, love requires deep knowledge of another person. Love requires understanding their needs, thoughts, wants, ideas, pasts, and ideologies.
You cannot call an emotion love not honed over years, not without being familiar with the bad habits and human weaknesses of your intended. Intimacy without emotion is not intimacy, it's a prolonged one-night stand, and it's as shallow as an brief one. One night stands or short-term couplings are fine for them's that like them; I have no moral qualms with people fulfilling sexual needs, even if I myself am not interested in sex without connection. Just don't call it love, for that debases us all and belittles the scope of the thing.
The beginning of a bond is always its most tenuous. Love takes patience, faith, and the foresight of mind to reevaluate yourself and your needs in the face of cooperative communication. A bond that weakens over time is just falling to the inevitable errors in its inception, playing out its errant course. But make no mistake, the signs were there at the start.
People who are truly in love with one another have seen sides of the other person you don't see in the honeymoon stage, and borne it out. Romantic comedies (and frequently dramas) stay in safer waters, prefering the cute over the substancial. But real love is far more murky; deep, complicated, and dark.
Love grows out of life: out of stress, out of miscommunication, out of grief, tenderness, humanity and toil. True love fights, even to the death. True love is not for the weak, the selfish, the arrogant, the impatient, the greedy, and the childish. It will bear them in the short-term, but in order to keep two people happy they both have to be willing to shrug off bad habits over time; it is unfair to ask someone else to suffer anything in you that you are not willing to suffer in them. The honeymoon stage may be all well and good for the romance industry, but love requires more; it requires you to change for the better, which doesn't sell as many diamonds.
Romance is all well and good, but give me love every time. Just don't confuse the two in the public mind, because meeting cute does not happily ever after make.
4/16/09
Facebook wastes my time beautifully.
1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
Yep. Several times, actually. Not once did I give them a reason to do so. Cops suck.
2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
Abso-frickin'-lutely. When you can get me on them, that is.
3. When's the last time you've been sledding?
The last big snow. I went, and there is video footage.
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
Sometimes with, sometimes not. That's why we have a big couch.
5. Do you believe in ghosts?
Unfortunately, yes. Because I can sense them and they like to fuck with me as a result.
6. Do you consider yourself creative?
Yep.
7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
Does the pope wear a stupid hat?
8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Angeline Jolie, after someone feeds her 18 pies.
9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics?
I know a lot about politics, which is why I keep out of it.
10. Do you know how to play poker?
Ish.
11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
I've been awake for 72 hours straight before. At the end of which I had a slight nervous breakdown, followed by a roughly 17 hour nap. Insomnia sucks.
12. What's your favorite commercial?
good god, I don't know.
13. Who was your first love?
Speed Racer
14. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red light?
Nope.
15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
Everyone over the age of 6 does.
16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
I hate baseball.
17. Have you ever been Ice Skating?
I've repeatedly fallen down on an ice rink before. Does that count?
18. How often do you remember your dreams?
Every night. And I have some doozies.
19. What's the one thing on your mind?
Money.
20. Do you always wear your seat belt?
Ever since dating Eddie, I do.
21. What talent do you wish you had?
organization.
22. Do you like Sushi?
Love it.
23. What do you wear to bed?
Um, I sleep nude.
24. Do you truly hate anyone?
No one who doesn't deserve it.
25. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
Mike Ness.
26. Do you know anyone in jail?
Yep. Two for murder one.
27. What food do you find disgusting?
Taco Bell, Dominos, McDonald's, diet soda, raisins, french toast, peas, american cheese, bologna, white bread, mayonnaise, Red Bull, Budweiser beer products, barbecue potato chips, fake maple syrup, cheap ice cream, vegetarian meat, soy milk, hash browns, pate', carrots, cheesecake, venison, cheez puffs, pumpkin pie, cool whip icing, fake grape or watermelon flavor, blood sausage, sauerkraut (except on a reuben), scallops, meat on pizza.
28. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
My friends? No. Enemies? Irritating Acquaintances? Sure. People in bad outfits? Absolutely.
29. Have you ever been punched in the face?
Not in the face. I've been in a few fights (long ago), but I've only lost one. Ironically, it was the only time I fought a girl.
30. Do you believe in angels and demons?
Nope. That's for christians.
31. How old were you when you think you actually became a grown up?
When I realized there was no one in the world above my son, and that I would die or kill to protect him.
32. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
I'd love to visit Spain, Paris, the Galapagos Islands, Canada, Ireland, Morocco, Macchu Pichu, Vermont, Hong Kong, and Hawaii.
33. Have you ever been in the hospital?
Yep.
34. Are you happy with your life today?
I am in love with my life today.
35. Have you ever had a stalker?
Yep. Some loser I went to school with, which is why I have an unlisted number now.
Yep. Several times, actually. Not once did I give them a reason to do so. Cops suck.
2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
Abso-frickin'-lutely. When you can get me on them, that is.
3. When's the last time you've been sledding?
The last big snow. I went, and there is video footage.
4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
Sometimes with, sometimes not. That's why we have a big couch.
5. Do you believe in ghosts?
Unfortunately, yes. Because I can sense them and they like to fuck with me as a result.
6. Do you consider yourself creative?
Yep.
7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
Does the pope wear a stupid hat?
8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Angeline Jolie, after someone feeds her 18 pies.
9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics?
I know a lot about politics, which is why I keep out of it.
10. Do you know how to play poker?
Ish.
11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
I've been awake for 72 hours straight before. At the end of which I had a slight nervous breakdown, followed by a roughly 17 hour nap. Insomnia sucks.
12. What's your favorite commercial?
good god, I don't know.
13. Who was your first love?
Speed Racer
14. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red light?
Nope.
15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
Everyone over the age of 6 does.
16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
I hate baseball.
17. Have you ever been Ice Skating?
I've repeatedly fallen down on an ice rink before. Does that count?
18. How often do you remember your dreams?
Every night. And I have some doozies.
19. What's the one thing on your mind?
Money.
20. Do you always wear your seat belt?
Ever since dating Eddie, I do.
21. What talent do you wish you had?
organization.
22. Do you like Sushi?
Love it.
23. What do you wear to bed?
Um, I sleep nude.
24. Do you truly hate anyone?
No one who doesn't deserve it.
25. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
Mike Ness.
26. Do you know anyone in jail?
Yep. Two for murder one.
27. What food do you find disgusting?
Taco Bell, Dominos, McDonald's, diet soda, raisins, french toast, peas, american cheese, bologna, white bread, mayonnaise, Red Bull, Budweiser beer products, barbecue potato chips, fake maple syrup, cheap ice cream, vegetarian meat, soy milk, hash browns, pate', carrots, cheesecake, venison, cheez puffs, pumpkin pie, cool whip icing, fake grape or watermelon flavor, blood sausage, sauerkraut (except on a reuben), scallops, meat on pizza.
28. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
My friends? No. Enemies? Irritating Acquaintances? Sure. People in bad outfits? Absolutely.
29. Have you ever been punched in the face?
Not in the face. I've been in a few fights (long ago), but I've only lost one. Ironically, it was the only time I fought a girl.
30. Do you believe in angels and demons?
Nope. That's for christians.
31. How old were you when you think you actually became a grown up?
When I realized there was no one in the world above my son, and that I would die or kill to protect him.
32. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
I'd love to visit Spain, Paris, the Galapagos Islands, Canada, Ireland, Morocco, Macchu Pichu, Vermont, Hong Kong, and Hawaii.
33. Have you ever been in the hospital?
Yep.
34. Are you happy with your life today?
I am in love with my life today.
35. Have you ever had a stalker?
Yep. Some loser I went to school with, which is why I have an unlisted number now.
3/28/09
Yes and No
Kissed any one of your facebook friends? Yes
Been arrested? yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? nope
Slept in until 5 PM? yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
Held a snake? yes
Ran a red light? yes
Been suspended from school? no
Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident? no, but I've had a few that were difficult to drive away from.
Been fired from a job? yes, once.
Sang karaoke? yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? no, but it has come out my mouth.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
Kissed in the rain? yes
Sang in the shower? yes
Sat on a rooftop? yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? no
Broken a bone? only one--my thumb when I was 5. My mom caught it in the Bronco door.
Shaved your head? yes
Blacked out from drinking? only once. Damn you, Chicken!
Played a prank on someone? I'm not the pranking type.
Felt like killing someone? yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife cry? yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? no
Been in a band? yes. Two, actually.
Shot a gun? yes
Donated blood? no.
Eaten alligator meat? yes, it was delish.
Eaten cheesecake? yes, but I don't like it that much.
Still love someone you shouldn't? no
Think about the future? yes
Believe in love? yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes, but I don't have a hard-on about it.
Talk in your sleep? yes, apparentally
Laughed until you peed your pants? um, no
Spend too much time on facebook? all time on facebook is too much time, and yet...
Play a musical instrument? yes, piano
Lived outside of the country? not lived, but visited.
Been skinny dipping? yes
Gone sky diving? no
Been arrested? yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? nope
Slept in until 5 PM? yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
Held a snake? yes
Ran a red light? yes
Been suspended from school? no
Totaled your car/motorbike in an accident? no, but I've had a few that were difficult to drive away from.
Been fired from a job? yes, once.
Sang karaoke? yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? no, but it has come out my mouth.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
Kissed in the rain? yes
Sang in the shower? yes
Sat on a rooftop? yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? no
Broken a bone? only one--my thumb when I was 5. My mom caught it in the Bronco door.
Shaved your head? yes
Blacked out from drinking? only once. Damn you, Chicken!
Played a prank on someone? I'm not the pranking type.
Felt like killing someone? yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife cry? yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? no
Been in a band? yes. Two, actually.
Shot a gun? yes
Donated blood? no.
Eaten alligator meat? yes, it was delish.
Eaten cheesecake? yes, but I don't like it that much.
Still love someone you shouldn't? no
Think about the future? yes
Believe in love? yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes, but I don't have a hard-on about it.
Talk in your sleep? yes, apparentally
Laughed until you peed your pants? um, no
Spend too much time on facebook? all time on facebook is too much time, and yet...
Play a musical instrument? yes, piano
Lived outside of the country? not lived, but visited.
Been skinny dipping? yes
Gone sky diving? no
1/30/09
Q&A
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: Nope
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? When we watched the PBS show on Oppenheimer, who built the bombs they dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I prefer typing.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Corned beef
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? One beautiful son.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Absolutely!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? With every waking breath.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? I think so.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Nope. I'm not 24 anymore.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKFAST? Pancakes with real maple syrup, dry scrambled eggs with an extra egg white, fresh mango and blueberries, strawberry orange juice, coffee with milk and sugar, and a glass of skim milk. Great, now I'm hungry.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? None of my shoes have ties.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Peppermint
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? If they look interesting.
15. RED OR PINK? Red, always.
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I am absolutely blind without my glasses.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My gramma, who passed in '07.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? Yes, if they want to.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Jeans, no shoes right now.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Mykonos by Fleet Foxes, PBS kids, and my son's electric keyboard demo.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Spring green
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? Mint, lilac, ylang ylang, fabric softener, my husband after a shower, my Aveda hair pomade
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Mia, last night.
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? I like Cat fine, even though I end up wasting a lot of time because of her. ;)
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Roller Derby and my husband's soccer games.
27. HAIR COLOR? Jet black with one blonde streak.
28. EYE COLOR? Green
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Can't. They give me migraines.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? Indian food, buttercream frosting on red velvet cake, homemade candy, real maple syrup, hot and sour soup, mangoes, grapefruit juice, feta cheese, sushi of any kind, pineapple pizza, toasted marshmallow latte.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Can't watch horror movies, but I don't need a happy ending. I prefer suspenseful movies, or good character studies.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? All the way through? The Dark Knight. Which was even better than I remembered.
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Black and grey off-shoulder 3/4 sleeve top.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? I prefer winter over summer, but I love spring and fall.
35. HUGS OR KISSES? If it's from a friend, both. If it's someone I don't know real well, a handshake will do.
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Handmade buttermints.
37. IF YOU COULD MAKE A WISH. For my son to grow up happy and healthy, and for my husband to finish his book and get it published so he doesn't have to work anymore.
38. WHAT (in general) IRRITATES YOU? People who don't have their shit together, people who are shiftless, people who make others suffer because of their own greed, fundamentalists, people having kids who can't properly care for them, and politicians who don't blink at bailing out their rich friends in the banking industry while expecting union workers to jump through hoops to get less than a 10th of the same money.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? I've read everything in my house.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? No mouse pad.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I sort of watched Scrubs reruns while my husband and I fell asleep on the couch.
42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)? Good music, my son's voice, snow falling, my husband's laugh, cats purring.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Neither. I prefer the musicians they ripped off.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Portugal.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Singing, drawing, painting, dancing, sewing, acting, dirty jokes, fashion design, web design, talking shit, creative writing, making candy, baking, and throwing a right hook.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? St. Louis.
47. WHAT WAS THE LAST NICE THING YOU DID FOR SOMEONE?
I hugged my son and told him I loved him.
48. WHERE DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER? I met him in a horrible art class at Meramec. I thought he was cute, so I decided he would be my friend.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? When we watched the PBS show on Oppenheimer, who built the bombs they dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I prefer typing.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Corned beef
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? One beautiful son.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Absolutely!
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? With every waking breath.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? I think so.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Nope. I'm not 24 anymore.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKFAST? Pancakes with real maple syrup, dry scrambled eggs with an extra egg white, fresh mango and blueberries, strawberry orange juice, coffee with milk and sugar, and a glass of skim milk. Great, now I'm hungry.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? None of my shoes have ties.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Peppermint
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? If they look interesting.
15. RED OR PINK? Red, always.
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I am absolutely blind without my glasses.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My gramma, who passed in '07.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? Yes, if they want to.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Jeans, no shoes right now.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Mykonos by Fleet Foxes, PBS kids, and my son's electric keyboard demo.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Spring green
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? Mint, lilac, ylang ylang, fabric softener, my husband after a shower, my Aveda hair pomade
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Mia, last night.
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? I like Cat fine, even though I end up wasting a lot of time because of her. ;)
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Roller Derby and my husband's soccer games.
27. HAIR COLOR? Jet black with one blonde streak.
28. EYE COLOR? Green
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Can't. They give me migraines.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? Indian food, buttercream frosting on red velvet cake, homemade candy, real maple syrup, hot and sour soup, mangoes, grapefruit juice, feta cheese, sushi of any kind, pineapple pizza, toasted marshmallow latte.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Can't watch horror movies, but I don't need a happy ending. I prefer suspenseful movies, or good character studies.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? All the way through? The Dark Knight. Which was even better than I remembered.
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Black and grey off-shoulder 3/4 sleeve top.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? I prefer winter over summer, but I love spring and fall.
35. HUGS OR KISSES? If it's from a friend, both. If it's someone I don't know real well, a handshake will do.
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Handmade buttermints.
37. IF YOU COULD MAKE A WISH. For my son to grow up happy and healthy, and for my husband to finish his book and get it published so he doesn't have to work anymore.
38. WHAT (in general) IRRITATES YOU? People who don't have their shit together, people who are shiftless, people who make others suffer because of their own greed, fundamentalists, people having kids who can't properly care for them, and politicians who don't blink at bailing out their rich friends in the banking industry while expecting union workers to jump through hoops to get less than a 10th of the same money.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? I've read everything in my house.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? No mouse pad.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I sort of watched Scrubs reruns while my husband and I fell asleep on the couch.
42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)? Good music, my son's voice, snow falling, my husband's laugh, cats purring.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Neither. I prefer the musicians they ripped off.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Portugal.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? Singing, drawing, painting, dancing, sewing, acting, dirty jokes, fashion design, web design, talking shit, creative writing, making candy, baking, and throwing a right hook.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? St. Louis.
47. WHAT WAS THE LAST NICE THING YOU DID FOR SOMEONE?
I hugged my son and told him I loved him.
48. WHERE DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER? I met him in a horrible art class at Meramec. I thought he was cute, so I decided he would be my friend.
3/8/08
Never Go on Quizilla when you have other things to do.
A while ago, I was bored and made up a test of my own on Quizilla. It took, like, a squillion hours to finish, but I was pretty happy with it when it was done, particularly since (unlike 99.999999999% of Quizilla) it was spelled correctly. So if you're bored, avoiding work, or just plain can't think of anything to do with the next 5 minutes of your time (which is why you're here, of course) take this test. The Internet Gods Command Thee.
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